Oh so now you're going back on your word? Damn it, I've never gotten so angry with anyone before. Don't give me the bullshit that I must understand you, do you even understand me? N-O NO. So why the hell must i understand you. I'm not like you, I don't pity myself and think that I'm the worst off in the whole wide world. Open your bloody eyes and look around. You think I'm giving you the worst problems any teenager could give? Fine with me, go get another daughter. I didn't ask to be here anyway. Got CCA trip you complain. Got overnight worship thing, also complain. Got Agapeland workshop, ALSO COMPLAIN. Got soccer match, COMPLAIN MORE. I want to serve God also cannot. What the hell. Got all this in July my fault la. Please la, I think I think these stuff are much more productive then what you do outside can. This is so not fun. HATE HATE HATE.

And when i need you the most,
you're still not here.